Don't be ashamed. Some of my first attempts with that old gravermiester I had looked worse.
We all start somewhere. Now you have made your start and it is decent start.
Now learn as much as you can about both design and technique and practice cutting as much as you can.
As long as you learn something on each practice piece and each one gets a little better than the last you are moving in the right direction.
THe most important piece of advise I can give is enjoy the process. Its supposed to be fun.
Ray